Like Riding a Bike

So, writing a blog is like any form of creativity 

and self-discipline.

When you fall off the wagon and don't write for a few days,

it is hard to know how to start.

And then you work your way up to a writer's block

and then you are just stuck.

Hopefully, getting back on won't be too difficult.

As some of my Facebook buddies know,

I was in quite a funk for the past couple of weeks.

Like everyone else, I have been stressed

by the current state of the economy

and fighting the panic and worry that is prevalent

in the news these days.

In addition to that, I have had some concerns

weighing on me regarding a couple of my kids

and that has been my downfall.

In so many areas of my life, I am a corner-cutter.

I have no desire to be perfect and don't impose a lot of stress on myself.

When it comes to my parenting, however, 

I tend to lose perspective and am terribly hard on myself.

I can't bear the thought of making a mistake 

and doing something that would inadvertently hurt one of my children.

How I wish there were a crystal ball

that I could look into

or some prophet who could tell me which decisions 

are the better ones to make.

Of course, no such thing exists.

We all just do the best we can 

and hope that our best is enough.

We pray that our kids will know that the choices and decisions we made for them

were the best we knew to do at the time

and then we struggle to let it all go.

I've been listening to a Steven Curtis Chapman song this week

and trying hard to take on this perspective:

(Lyrics below)

Steven Curtis Chapman - Miracle Of The Moment
From the album This Moment

It’s time for letting go 
All of our if only’s 
‘Cause we don’t have a time machine 
And even if we did 
Would we really want to use it? 
Would we really want to go change everything? 
‘Cause we are who and where and what we are for now 
And this is the only moment we can do anything about 

Chorus: 
So breathe it in and breathe it out 
Listen to your heartbeat 
There’s a wonder in the here and now 
It’s right there in front of you 
And I don’t want you to miss 
The miracle of the moment 

There’s only one who knows 
What’s really out there waiting 
In all the moments yet to be 
And all we need to know 
Is He’s out there waiting 
To Him the future’s history 
And He has given us a treasure called right now 
And this is the only moment we can do anything about 
And if it brings you tears 

Then taste them as they fall 
And let them soften your heart 
And if it brings you laughter 
Then throw your head back 
And let it go, let it go 
You gotta let it go 
Listen to your heartbeat